*Chews On Desk With Furiousity*

There is a few things that I would like to mention at this moment in time. I hate the way visual minorities are shoved in our face and made out that they have never did anything wrong in their whole entire history! Call me a bigot but what people are doing out there is making me want to smack the next visual minority in the head. Not everybody has a black, Hispanic or Asian friend in their call list to hang out for a beer on a Friday night. And I know a person who rather not know any woman on this planet if he had the choice. So why the crap is it on EVERY FREAKING COMMERCIAL THAT LIFE IS LIKE THIS? Whether or not it is a food commercial or a phone commercial, there is the randomly inserted visual minority! Sometimes they sneak it on there with a black woman hiding out in the background or the white woman with the black guy, it is never really equal out there is it? If I was a white male actor for a commercial I have a lower chance of getting the part than someone who was a lot darker of skin, or French. I used to be not like this but as I have grown and watched from the sidelines this has become an issue. Has our own society gone to hell in thinking that we must always be so politically correct that we cannot refuse someone who is actually not qualified for a job, based on the fact that he is a visual minority? What happens if it goes the other way? What if there is a place that is ran by the visual minority and they hired a lone white guy. After a time the lone white guy is cut hours and such because he sticks out of the place like a sore thumb. What is the rules and protection for that guy? I don't think I have ran across that. Most of the laws protect the minority and in the long run it has segmented the country into pockets of people that live with their own kind. The borders have allowed people who cannot function properly in this society (Like a closet is a closet not a bathroom for gosh sakes, and no you can't plant potatoes in your living room floor when you live in an apartment) and kick out the people that could function in this society.
Why am I suddenly speaking out like this? Simple I am frustrated at the third story of white, western Europe people getting kicked out of the country when they have a steady home here, speak one or both our national languages, highly educated, benefits to our society while every SINGLE F-ING time I call a government agency or bank I cannot understand a word that they say. Hello person with an accent from a country that I cannot pronounce, you now live here. I speak English. Some of the other peoples speak French. Last I looked those were the basic requirements to be in this country speak one of two. If you want to have your language at home, fine. Congrats to you. But the next time I begin to speak a different language in front of you, don't criticize me of saying something offensive, when it really wasn't. Now you know how we feel.
Last but not least this was the most hilarious thing I ever heard, and it now makes me wonder about little old ladies with two coloured mitts on. A car went into repair one day and it was found to have red paint on the brake, green on the gas. Post it notes all across the dash, taped to the steering wheel. This isn't notes about to pick up eggs and milk and the doctors appointment at four, this was instructions on how to drive the car. If you need instructions posted all throughout the car to tell one how to drive said car, I think it's time to hand in the license. But here's the scary part; she didn't have one. Never had one. I can't tell how many of these people cruising around in cars that are registered and insured (or not) out there...But here's a point to consider; does the government?

For the government they have their own stack of woes, mainly paperwork. Even though the systems of the inner workings have been transfered to computerization the fact of the matter is that they like asking the same question over and over again like some old man with dementia. As if to snare you into a trap of letting you answer a question wrong once to make it their way at least once, so that they don't have to deal with you. Hello? People don't speak legalese. If we did then there wouldn't be any use for having lawyers anymore. Stupid politicians.

I blame the Library useage increases on my family...

Yay for Alberta! Most libraries have declared that they had double digit increases in usage and items getting taken out. This is reportedly the same across the country and like everything else it is blamed for the economy. Can it be that people don't want to pay for books that lay around in their homes. I can say the same thing. I have more than one bookcase that is stacked full of books that I will never read again (can't say that for my manga). So why not read them once, and let someone else read them? TY Libraries!

Truckers, drug dealers and animal carcases live here! I couldn't believe that the news delivered a news article like that. If it wasn't so gruesome I would've laughed myself silly. Who writes this article like this? What does Drug dealers have to do with Truckers? Unless one of them gets run over with a semi what does it matter in a neighborhood if there is a bunch of truckers living there? However if you put animal carcases in the mix with any of the above it makes one question: Did the animal get hit by a truck or drugged to death. Both still outlandishly to be reported on the evening news. On my way to work I see animal carcases on an almost daily routine. I just try not to hit them myself, and other than the unlucky ground squirrel I've been lucky. Animal die of overdose...I've heard of dogs digging up stashes and getting quite stoned so I can foresee this. I don't know why... Perhaps there is way too many dumbass dogs out there for this not to happen. In the end the truth was far from these two scenarios that I have presented. There was the bodies of two young male bucks were dumped with their bodies dismembered and their horns cut off. The police think that they were killed in the hunting season and then frozen and dumped at that area. -_- People are dumb.

Talking about animals, whenever there is one that wonders into the city that seems to make it newsworthy. You wonder where in the world we all matter to it when a murder story involving a young person takes less time than a young female moose running around the suburbs and needing police to control it. It's as if no one ever saw a moose in their lives before. Darn soft news.

As for stupid dumb people I am hating people around construction zones. Mainly those who speed up to the point and cut me off. I think that people should start being less considerate to those people. Especially those who had sat in traffic patiently and get to be later and later because of some dumb ass person in a hyped up honda civic that decided to speed up to the point that the road becomes squeezed into one lane and hops into the line, making everyone slow up and take more time. I've once been reduced to a 20 km/hr in a 70 zone because of stupid people like that.

Oh well...The last thing of note: I'm even going more blind than I already am. I get to see the specialist again tomorrow and hopefully they get to have more of an opinion than "I don't know why it's doing that." Grrness.

And in other news I have posted Chapter 19 in Twin Earth and the Prelude in Wish Book. Enjoy the extra reads people!

Playing with snow in a thunderstorm...

Yeah that was intense. Building a snowman in a middle of a thunderstorm. Only in Alberta! I wish our sled trail had survived it because I so wanted to say that I waz sledding in the rain, but since we didn't have a good base to it yet we never had a chance. It's amazing how quick of a melt that we are having. In a week we almost had all of our snow melted, and today we face a high of 13*C! Insane! Just to think a month ago we had -30*C weather.

Happy Easter to all! I'm not going to be online so I decided to say it early. I'm usually late for everything.

I've also came to announce the starting of yet another story blog, Wish Book. I have yet to post the first chapter but it will come quickly, I promise. But not this weekend...But before next weekend.

I have also a new job, but I think I will quit before I start. It is selling knives and unfortunatly it is to sell to your friends and family first and to be frank I don't think any of them need high quality knifeware in their lives at the moment. I think it will be a failure before it starts, so why try? *sigh*

I have also been accepted into school! Now I can go out and get further into debt for something that *MIGHT* help me in the future...I'm starting to get tired of these type of ventures. However, it will prove to me once again that I'm not too old to go to school and meet new people.

I like dressing up, yes I do!

I'm giving you the right to not go through the hundred and forty some posts and uploading some pics of me up onto the internet. *Gasp in horror and die* I know, I said that I would never do such a thing but since I stole a pikky from other peoples, I figure that the internet already has my picture on it so what's the harm in putting a few more on it?
Lets see there is Animethon 2005...Guess who I am *hehehe* Gosh I hates that picture...


And then getting ready for Bellerose Anime Festival and being there at the school...

I'm a moogle if no one can figure that out ~Sighs~ The corset was tight and a pain by the time I got home but i would do it again by yar! I have a lot of people who had saved their game. I so want to do that again at a bigger con!

Yes I love being able to cosplay...If I had unlimited fundage and talent I would go around to every con and dress up...And buy more anime and manga than I already have...And more souvenirs than I already have...I should post them too when I finish organizing my stuff. I don't want to be a complete slob in front of the internet peeps do I?

Talking about peeps I love those marshmallow yellow bundles of doom. I eat their heads first...Does anybody else do that? Easter...The last venue to get chocolate before Halloween, which if I don't get out of the house before then I probably be out trick-or-treating again...Amazingly out here no one cares how old you are and dumps enough candy to have a diabetic coma in the car with. Frankly stating me sister and I gots a green garbage bag full each, and we came home early and got out late. Even still, I think my peers don't look too highly for me continuing to do that and I'm setting a bad example. Oh well free candy!

My House Eats Stuff! And Matters of the Heart....

One would think that if there was something missing that one could go back to the one spot that you last had it and it's not there. You go looking around a simular place and it's not there. Look at an unusual spot that one would find it and it's not there. Stuff gets eatten, and it's not only at my place I find but at the most other people's places at well. It's sad how much stuff goes missing within the wilds of other stuff. Oh wait...Hey!!!

It was right here all along...

Anyways I've been devouring books at a great amount, so much that the librarian is afraid to call me anymore since I bring in and check out about 20 books every time and visit her at least once a week. Even though most of the books that I take out has been in the junior or Young adult but I've found that they have more varied amount of topics than the adult books. Even still I've been reading some adult books as well as some non-fiction as well. One of which is Marley and Me, the book that the movie was based on. It made me laugh and cry and remember because one of my own dogs was so much like Marley that I wonder if he could be a brother in mentality because there would be no way for him to be brother in blood.

But of course I haven't been able to choose the greatest of pets in my lifetime. The first pet that I had all on my own was Snowflake Obsidian (Name of a rock)And she lived to her name. She was as dumb as a rock and often (vocally) came to pester the whole household whenever she was outta water, food or needed her washroom cleaned. Even though she wondered when she was going to be attacked by my sister or a dog she raced away only to glance around the corner to see if one was following so that the chase could continue. She often latched herself to the top of our curious dog, Healy, head. I always found it funny to pry off her claws from the head of an animal whose head is larger than the cat herself. She was small and liked hiding in areas away from our grasp so sometimes we find a clump of her fur in the most unlikest of places. I'm waiting until we pull up the floor of the house and find all of her cat toys that she stashed in the vents.
And then there is the two dogs. Buddy (the gray one on the left) and Healy (The black one on the right) Buddy came to us as a stray drop off that had some major issues. When he finally wouldn't leave I gave him a bath and found that someone had shot him with a paintball. Later I found that a lot of people of a certain nationality like shooting dogs with paintballs, pellet guns and even rifles. A lot of them show up in the pounds with need of major surgery and in the end some had to be put down because of this. It was possible that Buddy was one of these dogs, or just wondered into the way of someone playing on one of the acreages here. Either way he was too friendly for his own good and loved his food. He was useless as far as doing dog duties ie. barking when people arrived, playing any sort of game...We also found out that we couldn't keep him pinned in at all. He would climb out of wire cages, find his way out of wooden fences...

And then there was Healy... We had him since he was a pup and he was the most strangest puppy that I've met in a long time. When he was first brought home he didn't chew on shoes, instead he fell asleep on mine, and only mine, and slept with his nose firmly planted in it. His front paws were twice the size of his back paws (Which was the size of them all the way until he died) and a tongue that was far too large for his mouth. He was a good sniffer for sure and we always joked that he should've been trained as a drug dog for the police. He liked playing frisbee and hockey, even getting so much that he would body check someone in order to get to the fabled prize: the puck or ball or anything that he so desired. I guess it would be the part of retriever or Great Dane in him that made him so good at it. Even though getting the puck, or ball back away from him is something that is difficult to do.
Also like Marley in the book he would destroy things when it came to a storm or fireworks. Unthankfully it was Buddy who taught him to be afraid. It was until we got Buddy that we started to run into problems. He destroyed form ply and wire fencing, until his bullheadedness would force himself out. The last winter we had him it was hard on his hips so that it was cruel to tie him up anymore. He still liked to play and track down milkbones and even when his sight and hearing went he still would come to my whistle. When you come to own a dog as long as I did Healy it's hard not to think that a dog ages when they still are doing the things he did as a puppy. I once found my arthritic dog curled up on my shoes, snoring away. It made me smile.

And then there is Snookums. She trained Buddy to lay down whenever she commanded so she could lay on top of him. She's now 12 and lordess of this property. Weither it be wild dogs, other cats or even a passing fox she launches herself into attack mode and chases them off. After losing Healy and Buddy this year we have been lucky to still have her around, still playful (to attacking falling leaves, snow and her own tail) and loving. She was another stray that was left behind when a neighbor took off in the middle of the night. While our other neighbor will feed any wild cat, he assumes that she's ours. It didn't help that she had to wear a tick collar last year because we found her with a couple of the parasites bounding off of her *Uuugh* Now she's clear and even five minutes ago she was happily tracking down the fox to chase it off the property.

The name of my blog is how I feel today...

Confused and Confuddled is all that explains all my actions that I am now placing myself on the path that is laid out before me. Now that I have said that extreme amount of nothingness I shall elaborate on it. *blarg* Okay it goes like this: I have gone to the point that I could be now editing and compressing the story of Sinclair of Twin earth (See Here if this makes no sense to you) So I'm now at the crossroads in the whole episode that I could start production of the manga/graphic novel immediately but I have to state that the world of Twin Earth isn't built yet. This comes to the meaning that over the last few years I have spent time working on the mini-story that is placed in the scenery of another world that I have built in a novel form that I haven't worked on or thought of for years. So my concern is now should I leave everything on hold and work slowly on production of the graphic novel and work on publishing the novels and finishing all the tales that are just now sitting in a two inch binder and wait to publish it at the same time. I fret and worry about these kinds of things all the time, and in the end I always get screwed around by bad publishers or agents.

The desire to be known to the general public is strong but I don't want to be in the spotlight, par se. I have seen many artist desire this as well. I think it comes down to that there is something that drives our creations to be wanting to be in the spotlight but the artist (writer) themselves want to disappear under the shadow of the creation. However, there always come some amount of even the minutest artist that pokes out, even if they hide under another creation, a name that they write/draw under. This is some part of them that they as a person could point over and go "Hey it's not me, it's him/her", but it's still not a real person. I've toyed with writing and drawing under a different name, mainly because I can't come up with a writers signature for my own name. Lame excuse isn't it? In all seriousness I have to admit that my name came from a character in a book, and that in itself has to imply that I am simply a character in my own rights.
Okay I'm going to stop that rant because I will only write myself back in a full circle and that will not come to any conclusion.

I wonder how people would react if I put my hair up with pens and pencils at work...

Does anybody know how those preloaded VISA or MASTERCARDs work? Will they work online for stuff, say on e-bay or elsewhere? I have read that they are accepted anywhere they accept VISA/MASTERCARD but I'm not sure if that includes the internet...I'm really paranoid about using my real card on the online shops so I'm interested if I get a card with a set amount on it and use it if it would work...That way if someone gets my number on the preloaded card, I'm only screwed out of the balance and no more.

And in the end does anybody really, really care?

Online Personalities and Paperwork....

It's tax time again and it's time to do all that FUN paperwork once again... That means I pull apart my desk, causing many avalanches in the process. Meanwhile there is always something missing or something that has to be called upon or something that has to faxed away. I was good and got (most) of it done. (Yay me!) Meanwhile I have found a piece of paper that informed me that there is a few people who would like me to write about my online personalities, so all you lucky people you all get a first hand experience into my online life. Well of two characters of it...

Lalita Mae

Lalita Mae, sister of Guinivere Redwolf, a person that was a FW of the plains. Lalita Mae went from Ar to the forests of Gor. There she was accepted by the panther girls of Tri-Moons. After a few years a few Panther Girls and her went off and created the proud band of Wild Woods. There she was a High Girl and was a famed hunter of larls and Panthers. (and sometimes Males as well). A craver and healer by trade, many of the services of both provided gold and other liquid assets to the Band. Lost her position in the Band due to RT loss of password and other distractions. Is now a Free Panther looking for a new band due to the closure of Wild Woods.

Kami Akai

(Pic drawn a long time ago...2006...I should update it) A red head magician used only on Armitage Dimention. Closest to me in personality but has the ability to use any of the spells on Final Fantasy as well as the Dragon Slave from Slayers (Lina Inverse), usually for the betterment of the CB. Usually I am either at work or at home with a slow internet connection that makes it impossible for quick interaction, or even being constant in a conversation. Occassionally can change forms between human, cat, but mostly fox: A form of a form changing spell. Yeah nothing else to say about her...

Things are being annoying....Again!

It's time for revenge of the annoying...
#1. Telus has been double billing us. The dumb butts were threatening to ruin my credit and we finally settled down to do our taxes and found out that there was an internet charge on the phone bill. So they've been charging two different bills for one service. Therefore we must complain to a real person in which is something I dislike doing. I'll complain online but when it actually comes to complaining to a person then I really hate doing it.

#2. Vehicles. That's it. It's done. The poor grey beast drove it's last trip. The starter has a problem that requires the removal of the transmission and that means that it's too much for me to do considering the cost of the car. I wouldn't drop a transmission on a vehicle that I really like I'm not doing it to one that I don't overly care for.

#3. Other peoples negative waves. This sounds so hippish but it's not that far from the truth. Lately I've seen so many negatives waves get thrown around that I'm soon going to be bringing out my hammer of supreme justice on people. That or at least a swift kick in the ass. I thrive for positive words and I try to push on trying to make it so that others hear positive things as well. That makes it difficult in todays world, where there is worldwide problems and everyone has to hear about them. Meanwhile everything that is going on with the world makes me more and more wanting to be a nationalist and say "F You!" to the rest of the world. To me that might cause some more problems as a worldwide trader but it might help the people in our own country.

#4. Now Hiring signs. There are so many Now Hiring signs all over the place but as soon as you drop off your resume the people say, "Oh we're not hiring right now." "It's been slow so we might not be hiring." It's one way or the other people! You either ARE hiring or NOT. There is no other way to look at it. Why should you have a "Now hiring" sign in the window if you're not hiring? Face the facts people! If you don't have a job take down the bloody sign, when there is a job there, put the sign back up. What is that going to cost you in the long run? A piece of paper and some tape. Not like the piss-me-off like having a sign for a position that isn't there.

#5. Internet applications. "Oh we are hiring but we cannot take your application here, you have to apply online." Oh how I want to smack the person who invented internet applications. No even worse than that, I want to put them through a meat grinder when they are still alive, cook the meat, feed it to pigs and then burn the pig waste. Maybe feed it to the pigs a second time. If they only knew how long it took for someone on dial-up to fill in an online application form they might've put the whole thing at least on one page, but no. The people have to split up the resume that it had to break everything down into tiny little pieces so that a 15 question application would take 2 1/2 hours to fill in. RAWR! The only promise that I wish Chrietian (Our last prime minister) stuck with is that everyone would have access to high speed internet, but no that wasn't a high priority. We had to have something like gun registry, which is the stupidist thing I have ever heard of. A person could build a gun with pipe and no register it. Also what type of criminal would commit a crime with a registered weapon. Also it's not as if the weapon had to have a bullet sent in so it's marked. Anyways....

#6. People saying they will do anything for the environment. Bull Crap! Here is a picture from last years inventory of the recycled cartridges:(Neat huh?) But this year we had only 1/5th of the cartridges of that of last year. I doubt that there is only 1/5th of the people printing out there. Also there has been a decrease in our output due to the fact that no one uses our services. I would also like to inform people that there is very few printers that have INCREASED their output in the last few years. More than a few have actually made the cartridges SMALLER even though their size hasn't decreased. Complicated isn't it? That's what the corporations want you to think. Many of the new printers come with half filled cartridges so you have to go out and buy another cartridge right away. Another thing the printer corporations love doing is give out large print capacities on the boxes of their cartridges but only base that on a 5% cover rate. That is a stupid amount because 5% isn't really much at all.

My Internet life has been getting pretty odd...

If anybody ever asks I never add anyone onto my MSN...So why is it that there is always about ten people who add me everyday? It's not as if I have given out my email addy in a long time either. I have had in the past someone add me to yell at me for being quicker than them to get the assigned email address but now it's just odd. On the one hand I want to block them all so that I wouldn't have to talk to them online, but in the end I add them for the fact that there are lots of people out there that know my email and I don't want to black anyone that I may have some association to, unless their name is in a different language.
This brings me to the point of the point. Where are they getting this info and what are they planning on doing with it? Is it mass terrorism of the masses? Probably not. I have lots of people MSNing me for a one night stand. Where on earth would they think that I'm even into that kind of thing? Sorry to inscribe a disturbing image into peoples minds but I'm not into that. Even so there is a message every two hours, like clockwork, asking me to click on this link so that I can "hook up" with a nearby single person. Give me a break.

On another note, anyone know of any RP chat sites? The one that I was chatting on forever has closed down permanently. I'm saddened by the fact, due to the mistake of a password and username I was unable to sign in to the site for about a year and I was able to sign in, just in time for it to shut down. It is difficult to find one in which people are satisfied with simple script and not something that has their own character running around on screen. An example of what I'm talking about would be WoW (And if you don't know what I'm talking about get back under that rock you're living under and die). Meanwhile the "old fashioned" chat rooms are dying out. Call me old school but that is what I'm used to and it was the newest fangled thing out there when I first came onto the internet. Dial-up was speedy then too. Wow I'm aging myself aren't I? Either way I'm depressed that I have to find another site, establish a persona and everything once more. I had a good set of people to RP with unfortunately with the invention of the new style of chatrooms, RL and "accidents" happening to their characters the room died and now is gone.

The last thing that I am tired of is that whenever one goes job-hunting online anymore there is very few postings that will actually give you a physical address to go down to and submit your resume. I'm tired of employers thinking that could save time by running email scanner bugs and search out certain words in a resume and in those words they will find the perfect person. If that was true then there would be more dictionaries in the work force. In all seriousness though I thought to try to apply online and it took me more than two hours to perform a simple application! These websites are not built for people that are stuck on dial-up and I think that the bandwidth or whatever it is called for the internet in general is going to suffer as a result. To put this into perspective; when the internet was new the pages were simple and essentially not nice to look at. Then came simple graphics that were quick to load... Then came the real killer, the websites that one has to load a moving graphic that is in high quality to even enter the site. I really hate those, it takes me so long to access the site to see if it even relevant to what I'm looking for that I could've done so many more tasks in the meantime.

Oh well it all comes with change.

Hating you makes me have a warm fuzzy feeling inside...

I have to laugh at that saying everytime I see it on the happy bunny items.
But it's true.

I have taken the time to actually read some of my own blogs and I realize I hate stuff.
Lots of stuff.

Some of the top of my list is,
Pants...
Snow...
Cold...
Heat...
Water...
My Boyfriend...And especially his parents....

Oh yes there is a lot more but that is just one of the things that make me happy. I have supreme pleasure out of hating things. Does this make me a bad person? Probably. Will I recieve treatment for this condition? Definely not. A lot of people say to do things that make you happy and hating the world seems to be one of those things for me. Yay!


As for other things...The weather has been retarded. The radio even says that mothernature around here is going through menapause. It's going from nice, to windier than hell, to snowing but otherwise nice, to windy, to freezing ass cold, to nice and then, just in time for me to work, going to snow. In a week there is a chance that it will peek out to a 16 degrees above zero. I'm scepticial but if it would happen we would have over a 50 degree swing in a matter of a week. I'm sick of it myself.


I broke another starter in half in my car. I have spent more in towing in the last month than the original cost of the flipping thing. To make matters worse is that I loaded the bottles from work into it and didn't take them out. I have over $30 sitting in the trunk. Anyone want to steal it now?

New year, New bitch

Lately I've been ignoring my emails, due to the fact that every time I open them there is a huge pile of sorting just waiting to spring upon me with hungry time-wasting jaws. Everything from real truly important emails to the time wasting moronic speed dating ones...Oh we can't forget about the Viagra emails that have interesting short paragraphs at the top that if one puts them all together makes a pretty funny romance novel. gah. Either way who on earth has the innitive or time to go around making these emails that waste time for everybody else to clear out their accounts and delete them in the end? Also I would love to find out how they get my email accounts in the first place. I bet random hackers go around and investigate one's computer and if they don't find anything interesting they grab all your email accounts and sell them off to spammers! Stupid spammers. I've ranted about them before to various people but after a while they left me alone but now they are back stuffing my obscenely huge email folder full of the daily pills, scams and other useless information that I have to (slowly) file through and delete.

On other rants we bought a new snowracer to replace the snowfox that was demolished last year in a spectacular fall off of mount grindy. I shoulda got that one on film, oh well. In it's primer run the snowracer broke it's handle, throwing Kim off of it. Simply to say that the older technology lasted almost 20 years versus maybe 20 minutes (set-up time included) and it wasn't as if we lauched her off the huge snowbank that we had last year...It was only off the snow covered hill and not a built up snowpile. There goes any of our hopes of making a run that came off the house roof.

Stupid skates. I wanted to go skating this year and see if I could handle it with a failing knee and if I could we could build a rink in the backyard. Why not it was really good weather for it with it dipping into the neg 30s. So went looking for them. Never found them. Neither did we find Ben's skates. Betting dollars to doughnuts we'll find them in the summer when it's plus 30 out. I could almost guarantee that.

I've finally resigned myself to going back to school. If that happens then I will have NO outside life for the next 2 years. However I'm OK with that. Kim on the other hand isn't as welcome to the idea. She wants to a bunch of cons over the next year and I'm not sure if I could afford to go, but I do go I already have most of my next costume ready unless I think of a new idea for cosplay.

So it's on the job hunt again. Even though many people are crying out recession and such I think it's only a cry made out by the journalists that is causing most of this downfall here in Canada. To think it through there is a lot of help wanted signs all over the place and it's not as if the people are responding to it. The people out there is just getting too greedy for their own good and wouldn't take the lower paid jobs even though they are offered. On the other hand large companies are looking at their pocketbooks and not the desires of their customers to increase their profits. An example of which is the American Car Companies. Their cars are now riddled with expansive repairs that could only be done with their technicians and their designs are ugly. This isn't only my point of view but many of the people who I've talked to. Face it cars out there right now are dangerous, unreliable and downright UGLY. I'm not talking like the fat girl with braces I'm talking beaten with an ugly stick until it has hair only in patches, 700 hundred pounds with one tooth, cross eyed, puke and three day old food on its chest and no discernible language ugly.
*Clears throat* so back to the main topic of this part of the rant I'm off job begging once more. I really hate to do that but face it with tumbling debt and desire to go back to school I cannot afford to stay at the job that I'm at. There is also a little more to that but I'm going to hold back today with it.
Well I'm done and this will take long enough to make into a blog *shakes a fist* stupid dialup.

It's been a couple months hasn't it?

Sorry for not keeping up with this blog a lot has been happening over the last two months.
First of all I was writing for NaNoWriMo for the month of November. I tried to complete it but found out that I had no interest in the story after half way into it. Next year I should just work on something that I have well planned, not just an extension of a story I wrote in the seventh grade. Either way I got further than I did last year and that makes me happy. I'm now working on three other stories and hopefully that will keep me interested for a while.

Other news we had to put down Buddy. It was hard but the best for him. That all what matters. So we are now on the hunt for another dog, hopefully something fluffy, but not too small. We had seen a few puppies that interested us but we haven't actually went to see them. The internet is a wonderous thing.

Then come Christmas. This year was busier than usual. First off I had to actually spend some time at Ben's family this year. That meant that the Christmas at my household had to be put on hold. Also to note that I have had enough turkey that I don't want to see the bird for another seven months at least! So I spent Christmas and Boxing Day with Ben's family and extended family. As for Christmas at home, we were still opening gifts on Saturday, after work. I think people spoiled each other once more, but it was all in good fun. We got the tree three weeks ahead of the holiday and all that equated to is that we were three hours earlier than usual. How crazy is that?

Also welcome to the cold weather. How I hate it. I've so far had a frozen car three out of four Saturdays. It's not fair! I even tried to start them and let them run but to no avail. Hopefully it will snap soon or I'll be hibernating and not going out for a job until April, and I need the money. *Growls*

I'm going back to school! People wonder why I'm going to go back, well it's because of the accident. They still haven't fixed my eyesight and therefore I wouldn't be going back to work like I am so back for retraining. Well I'm off hopefully I will be on with another post soon.

I think this might develop into a problem...

For starters I have to say this: I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE.
Change stinks. Changes bites. Changes make the world blow major chunks and makes my life a major hell. End of discussion. End of sentence. And no I'm not talking about the hard stuff that you get at the end of the day when you hand in a $20 bill, I rather in fact like that kind of change. Makes you feel rich when you don't have much money. No I'm talking about the things you can't do anything about so it throws you into a semi-depressive state.
The normal people out there are going to read this and then go think I have fallen off the deep end with this one but give me a while and I will explain.
What do I find when I log into blogger? CHANGE! I had to my eyeballs with things getting moved around on me. First it was the username into google account I grumble because my user name was a 9 letter easy flowing rheumatically typing thingamajig, the email address that I am forced to use now has a @ sign in it which makes it have no flow to the type. I may rant but it's going somewhere. ---> over there. Anyways today they changed where the comments go. Fine dandy, BUT on a couple of the blogs that I read some of the funky stuff that they added to the blog that you people with high speed internet get to enjoy, suddenly ATE THE FREAKING COMMENT BAR! So sorry no comments for my friends.... EVER AGAIN YOU HOSERS!

I do realize that I am complaining about blogger on blogger but I'm agrivated. I'm a red-head. And there is a GOD DAMNED FRUIT FLY BUZZING AROUND MY HEAD for some reason...Die flying demon die!

HAHAHA I squashed it's little body into a little black ball...ADD much? yes. Oh look at the sparkles.

Getting serious again though this does cause problems with people who cannot have things change easily for them like people with autism. Or dial up. Or crap ass computers that are barely able to hook online with the browser that they have.

Or just oooh look at the sparkles...

Sorry about that...

I've been far too busy this summer to wait for blogger and it's rediculisly long wait time to sign in that never seems to work on dial up to bring people up to date. It doesn't seem to matter anyways because the world of blogger has died so badly that no one checks other peoples blogs on a regular basis anymore anyways. Or they don't update their own anyways or post things in which it is really REALLY hard to make a comment on anyways. meh.

So I will bring people up to speed on my life and what is going on with it before my migraine hits and I get a headache for doing this. I'm not sure why I'm doing this other than I feel that I have to every once in a while or my conscious hits me.

Animethon - I went again this year...And I have to admit it that I was the most disappointed in it so much that I'm not sure that I want to go next year. I'm not sure if it was the lack of the crowds or that the weather had something to do with it but it seemed lacking this year and that was sad. Not many people glomped or took photos. There weren't that many people period. The crowds weren't there, the volunteers are volunteers and I thank them for what they do but when someone e-mails them and sends them messages please send them a line back! The only saving grace was the cheap deals that I found there that I never found outside Animethon. Thanks vendors! I would add photos of the costumes that I made but I am not waiting for it to load up online and I couldn't find any of us online. Sorry people of the online world.

Healy - We lost our quarter dog Healy this summer. It's a sad thing but what can one do. The unfortunate part is that our other dog Buddy is now depressed with the other dog gone.... *sigh*

Bodyworlds One - Which was very cool. If there is anyone who is interested in the body in any way I highly recommend it. I have one warning though...There is a lot of penises. But I got to touch a lung, a liver and chips of arms. My sister and I spent over three hours in the exhibit and watched as people sped by the exhibits. Concerning the cost of the tickets I'm amazed how people didn't take the time to enjoy what they were viewing.

Garden - We got pumpkins! I'm surprised! I got mom a plant as a lark and it took over the garden. We got 11 mid-sized pumpkins off the plant last week that were good and threw away a couple of them. Why should this be a big whoop-de-do? Simple, this is Northern Alberta and the likelihood of getting a good pumpkin off a plant is fairly low. So I can't wait to start cutting into them for Halloween! As well as our normal amount of potatoes, carrots, onions, peas, strawberries and other munchies. yum.

Story and Artwork - I will be posting Chapter 14 on my story blog. I would like to thank Liz and Bubbles for showing an interest where others have not. Thanks guys I love you! It wouldn't be updated as much as would like but hey what can I say? Also I will be reactivating my account over at fanart central due to some interest maybe I can hook my sister into doing that as a favor for me. I'm wanting to work on seventeen trillion ideas but none of them seem to come to fruit. Oh well.

Well that's all I can think of right now. Enjoy that for now. Canadians get confused with voting next Tuesday...

As I look around...

I noticed that there is a lot of things I haven't been attending to on the world of Blogger, or the world of my computer for that matter. My last post was made on May the 9th. My calender is still in February. The pile of paperwork on my desk is now even with the top of my 2004 monitor. There is people I should be calling and things I should be doing. Even though I have more free time than I ever had in my whole entire life, to do the things I wanted to do, and even though I'm getting some of what I desire to accomplish finished, it doesn't seem to be enough. It doesn't seem to be satisfactory.
I guess it is what it means when you need a change in life.

Stupidity on mount hight! Mainly about the news:

Alright now I got to admit that there is a lot of things that I have ranted and raved about in the past, mainly about moronic drivers, but now I would like to rant about the news.

It has come to my attention that the past of the people that hold government office has come to haunt them now. I don't think that this should be so. For instance, there was a month or so ago a scandle broke that there was a video found that had a gay remark on it that was a party way back in the 1990s. The people were obviously drunk, but they had gained power and this was politically incorrect and it is now offending some people. Now I must admit that what he said was wrong but common people, this was at a party and he was drunk. This was a video tape that was taken for private use not to be used to shown on the news to tear the guys name in the mud and make him look like the bad guy. Now he apologized for his comments that he made when he was drunk on that occasion in the 1990s, which I'm not sure if his views have changed or if he was apologizing to save face.

Which brings me to my next one. The house of commons were up in a uproar for a party member not having relations with someone with someone who had relations with a hells angel. Who has a headache? I do! Who gives a flying fuck? I DON'T! Common people once again I say that people aren't allowed to grow up and make mistakes in their lives? They aren't allowed to learn from them and put the past behind them? That they are forced to be carry the burden with them for the rest of their lives? Fine! But for the sake of political correctness please stop debating this crap, there gotta be better things to debate, like I donno, foreign affairs?

The last thing I wanna close on is this: Power hungry people. There was an example of one on the tele with a woman getting fired from Tim Hortons for giving away a timbit to a fussing toddler. yes indeed it probably was a wrong thing to do at the time but it is something that happens in the store more times than one thinks. In a box of 20 timbits it is not uncommon for an extra timbit to escape and join in. Usually the employees just fill the box. These things to sell are .16 cents each and probably for the corporation, around a nickel to produce. All in all, they give the dogs in the drive thru day old ones for free. Also consider this; this was a customer that was in on a regular basis, so probably produced more revenue than it did for that timbit. Also the employee offered to pay for the timbit, realizing that the line is more cut and dry than what she was described. Even so she was still fired.
All in the end Tim Hortons hired her in a new location and position and the manager is getting a talking to. However I think that the corporation should have the rules set out. If they are going to allow this or not, and in what situations or not, so that it isn't embarrassed like this again.

meh.

In regards to last nights post...

The world doesn't let you know what you can do on your resolution until you actually check it out. I was going to order the next book and found out to my shock and horror that the next one is the last. Yes the last one is the only one that the library system has in order and in fact the one after that is up for grabs for pre-sale at amazon.ca. I am very bummed out. If I was living in England I would have the next two but I don't so meh.

So as for resolutions go I'm off to find another one.

Resolutions!

It is funny that one should remake themselves on new years day. I never seem to be able to make a new years resolution on that day. I think I made a post stating something similar before. However, if someone came up to me and asked me what is my resolutions for the year say, in April it would be far easier for me to say what my minor goals for the year would be.
I came up with something really silly this year and in being silly it may be easy to achieve: I shall read the whole series of Peanuts. Yes, Charlie Brown, Snoopy, Linus and the gang from the beginning to wherever the complete Peanuts series ends. Realize that this is not an easy task, for the following reasons; I still have the vision problems that are limiting my time reading, and that is why I am reading Peanuts and not taking the challenges of greater writers and series that gather dust upon my selves and I look at with great longing. Other reasons include that this comic is a very long running series, one that had been running far longer than I had initially realized, and with this collection, they had gathered all the dailies and Sundays. I must tip my hat off to Charles "Sparky" Schulz in drawing and lettering each one by hand with no help with an assistant. *claps a hundred times a minute* Also I have read the introductions in the beginning of each book which have been proving fascinating, telling stories and giving insight of how a troubled and shy man had touched these peoples lives as well as the rest of America. The last reason is that there is a slow down is the library system in ordering the books so I'm now fearing that with the hiccups that during the summer especially, that I wouldn't be able to keep up the pace to meet the December deadline.

But in the whole getting these books from the library has been a sort of a time capsule. There were things published in the strip that was important in that time that was never thought to be important now. In one of the 50's strips there was Charlie Brown rifling through War, Gor and Horror comics, Lucy and Linus and Sally all had to go through baby-hood, Happiness is a dime to get a chocolate bar and a comic, The kids were almost always listening to records, simple toys like ball, roller skates, bubbles. Then in the 60's it went to satellite launches, more television influence, first reference of the zip code, 75 cent kites, and even skate boards. One may not even realize that they seen all the references of the changes of the times but my sister had picked it up when she saw the prices and gained some insight of the time that has past. I wonder if it will be the same if my grandkids pick up the same book or the ones done by Lynn Johnson (I'm using her because she cartoons using modern day setting and does creates controversy with some of her FBOFW) and ask if the things in the comic true to what they were, or not. As I pass them a twenty dollar bill for their chocolate bar I can say "Yes in 1950 you could buy a chocolate bar and a comic for ten cents."

Many many things

It's been a while, and I'm sorry I said I wouldn't leave things so long but I've been avoiding things again.

The following movie is from late February... and the snow pile is still almost that high.

And after that the snowfox had an unfortunate accident, so if anyone has one (a snowfox or snowracer) that they are no longer using and that they are willing to sell to me, and they aren't on the other side of the country and could hook me up please let me know! I'm still looking forelornly at an awesome run out there and it's not melted away yet. ^_^

What else. Provincial elections has come and gone. The PC's have been re-elected. What a big surprise. A lot of people where falling into the commercials that were airing on the tele that there was going to be a big uprising and overthrowing of government but I couldn't believe it. Unfortunatly, if there is any large change with oil monies now they may thumb their noses at us and pull stakes. Alberta is not the only province with oil and other provinces have expressed their interest in rubbing elbows with the large companies, I may be wrong due to being fed wrong information, but that is my impression. At least in the end of it all there might be some changes: I hear that they may do something about health care premiums so that's good.

I have noticed that I have been in the work force for almost seven years now, and during that time minimum wage went from $5.60 to $8.00 and during that time I noticed things roll up in price. For instance I noticed that a 4L of milk jumped in price from $2.99 to $3.99 to finally last week $4.29. Bread went from $.99 to $1.29. True that this may be counting pennies when dollars are to blame, but this is becoming stupid. Rent doubled. Fuel went up a third, food went up almost a third (more if you try to eat healthier), every utility wants to ding their customer before they even use their services, cellular phone companies deciding that "evenings" begin at 9pm and anyone who says anything about it is just whining. I think that they are ripping people off because they can and because people can't do anything about it because evey other company out there is doing it too.

Oh we had a lunar eclispe. I found a picture of it on my camera. Very cool. When was it? A while ago. If you want a exact date, umm, geek of freak, leave a comment and I will look that up for you. It was neat though.


Oh my gosh! I will be making a post on my story blog! I promise it WILL NOT BE AS LONG AS THIS ONE!!!

And just for interest sakes and he's such a nice guy and I leave the best thing for last. I gots this on Monday. Yeah a crappy picture but what can I say I have a crappy camera for really close up sparkily stuff, this will keep me happy for another two years. Actually I'm happy about the crappy photo because I've already started to "accidently" marr the left gold bead and you can't notice it as badly in this photo *insert bad laughter here*

And the "face" of Stony Plain changes...

As many of us who have walked on the many of the quiet streets of Stony Plain there is a past that stares back at us, watching as we go along our daily business, silent reminders of times that are past and gone. I am speaking of the paintings that dot along the streets of downtown Stony Plain, sometimes half-ways hidden in a turn of a building, where you might find a pair of children reaching up to pet a horse, or way up high where everyone can see, like the one on the high school.

Unfortunatly for these paintings their life span is numbered by the usefulness of the buildings they call home. This time we lost the Lady With The Hats, a mural depicting former Stony Plain mayor and MLA Cornelia Wood and her vast collection of hats. There was very little to be done to save the mural as the building was far outlived it's lifespan. However from the loss of this mural and others before it has shown errors of the town's ways. Now the paintings are being painted on boards that are removable so that the painting can be removed, the building repaired, built, whatever and the painting replaced with no harm to it. I think this is a fantastic idea! Hopefully the lady can be repainted or be placed with honor in a place where she will not fade into only a memory. Then who is to say that her story is more important then then the dust left by the crumbled buildings' morter.