...

Got a job interview, lost the job to someone else. I'm starting to hate this cycle. Go to an interview and tell your story in different lights to make sure that you can get the job. The interviewer gives you false hope that they are going to hire you. On the day that you are about to do something that will cinch the job and they give you a call WHILE YOU ARE YOUR WAY, to tell you that it's not necessary to come in because they filled the position.

Now if you don't mind excuse my language: What the fuck is wrong with the picture when I can't get a fucking part time position at McDonalds? They hire kids only a year older than my sister, or old peoples looking for a boost in their pension. Places are crying that they cannot find people but they are willing to be choosy on who they wish to hire. I guess that it is their right but then don't complain that you can't find people. Here is my personal numbers, over the last three months I have put out over 50 resumes to various places that are hiring. Got only one call back. Before that over the last year, (after I left Superstore) I've put out resumes to the top turn over areas in the Grove; WalMart, Boston Pizza, McDonalds, Arbys, A&W, Pizza Hut, Bings, etc., only WalMart and McDonalds gave me an interview, even a second interview (In WalMart's case I've had five interviews WTF?). Once again they say that they'll call you, but they don't; you get a nice letter in the mail stating that the position is filled and thanking you for your time.

There I'm done my rant, sorry to those out there reading this written diarrhea that violently spewed out on this "page"

As for the fun things in life, we got the store decorated! Yes people are complaining that it's too early to get ready for christmas but hells Canadian Tire is now playing Christmas Music on a repeater mode. Poor suckers working there. So I got the windows all painted and hopefully if I can and it doesn't freeze me out of doing it I might do some more but it is verra unlikly.

I just met the most interesting person I have met in a long time. She was educated and well spoken. She had her own opinions and weren't afraid to share them, even if they crossed that politically correct line. Unfortunatly she burned up an hour of Corrinnes and my own's time for $.80, but sometimes one has to step out of the boring shopclerk and go and connect with some of the people who come in and appreciate them for who they are and what they bring even if it's only a good chat and eighty cents.

Anyways there is anything better than this I should be doing. Even if it is adding another chapter to my own story or that of the others that have been working on line by line.

I shall leave you with something else interesting that floated past my desk today...

Here's to Your Health! (Hic!)

It is said that the ancient Romans used to toast a woman's health by

drinking a glass of wine for every letter of her name.

Oh, what merry times were had when

Cornelia Theodora Agrippina

attended a party!

An Oprah Test....Cause everyone likes doing these things...

My personal score was 38.

Thank you Danya for emailing me this thing....

Dr. Phil gave this test on Oprah. It's a psychological profile so don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends, includingthe one who sent it to you, and let them know who you are.

The person who sent it placed their score in the subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends. Answers are for who you are now ... not who you were in the past. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today.

It's only 10 simple questions, so ...grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers.

Ready?? Begin........
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1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin,or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with
a) a big, appreciative laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering, you
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're>interrupted; do you ...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep, you lie
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

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POINTS:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g)1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4(d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

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Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care". You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful &practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything. They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

Since it was just halloween....

I would like to introduce my newest character, whom has taken my pen name: Kami.

Since probably no one cares she was designed by the r/ping at Armitage Dimension. Thanks to those nekos who chased around the bells. And to those who are with IWS to make the world more fashionable.

I'll get the other drawings up somewhere on the cyber world as soon as I get a stupid scanner again.

And like the problems that carrie was facing PSD do not convert over to the .jpgs with any liking whatso ever.

((typing in white totally sucks major buttocks))

Kim is not as interesting as the rest of us....

My Personality

Neuroticism	87
Extraversion	0
Openness To Experience	24
Agreeableness	1
Conscientiousness	0

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Ha ha Ben's more Neurotic than I thought

My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	82
Openness To Experience	48
Agreeableness	54
Conscientiousness	51

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My Personality

Neuroticism	97
Extraversion	1
Openness To Experience	66
Agreeableness	0
Conscientiousness	17

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You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. You can be easily upset, even by what people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising and you have less concern with others' needs than with your own. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Neuroticism explanation
Overall Score 97
Anxiety 98
Anger 43
Depression 99
Self-Consciousness 99
Immoderation 42
Vulnerability 93

You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion explanation
Overall Score 1
Friendliness 1
Gregariousness 0
Assertiveness 28
Activity Level 41
Excitement-Seeking 0
Cheerfulness 1

People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits.

Openness To Experience explanation
Overall Score 66
Imagination 90
Artistic Interests 71
Emotionality 44
Adventurousness 0
Intellect 91
Liberalism 69

Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Agreeableness explanation
Overall Score 0
Trust 21
Morality 1
Altruism 0
Cooperation 34
Modesty 40
Sympathy 0

You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

Conscientiousness explanation
Overall Score 17
Self-Efficacy 21
Orderliness 6
Dutifulness 44
Achievement-Striving 26
Self-Discipline 54
Cautiousness 26

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.


yay?

I got me a voice recorder...

Kim and I were doing the two words each thingy and this is what we came up with. I'm so am surprised that we sound so much alike. We were interrupted half way through to do chores so it's not complete, maybe it could be completed at some other time, maybe not too I donno...

Blue skies were now drawing clouds from the north east so the little kitty wanted to hide from the angry clouds that smelled like rain. She hissed at the dog that was hiding under the dorrstep that she was sitting under. The startled dog ran away and ran into the old man who kicked the dog flying. Happy the cat purred, and was eating some dried cat food. Suddenly she, saw that there was a break in the rain. So she ran over to her owners place. She was locked outside. That made her angry and started to meow and scratch at the doorframe. What a dumb cat the owner yelled so she ran away and never came back. The cat went to another place near an old farm were she found a huge amount of vets. So she continued on. She found a place that had lots of other cats, that she found two liked to play. Especially the little gray one, which was named Henry the first. Day they that she was there Henry decided to move and eat somewhere else. Angry the mother cat decided to ground him and eat all his short-shorts. So he got mad and ran farther and with the rat that was friends with Henry. The female rat was suddenly died. And so Henry was lonely so the female cat decided to travel with him. The days went quickly by as the two went travelling somewhere else. They went to the city where there was lots of icecream stores! Happily they stole the icecream and ate it until their stomachs were fat. And very round. Disgusted they started to travel on un til they found another place where they met up with a large tabby who was orange. He was named Garfield. So he went with them to eat icecream but they said there was no more...

Friday the 13th! It's story time!

I thought that it would be nice to have something halloweenish and considering that this is Friday the 13th, I thought it would be good to post a picture that we all could write a story upon. I remember from way back having a picture simular to below and writing something spooky on it. Might be interesting on what everybody comes up with... Happy writing!

A few moments before work

This is the time in which I love to be at work. The store is open but I don't have to do anything. I know I'm weird. I used to come in from a break early when I worked at CT and watch the people get ready for their shift, or off to have a smoke. The time in which is away from home and I can tell people to eat shit and die, cause I'm not technically here. Unfortunately here it isn't always the way that I can go. For one I usually work on the computer in the "cubicle like cage" that is my workstation, so that if I go over my time I just leave the site open and work on it whenever I got a spare moment or whenever I get a break (ie whenever the other girls go for a smoke break and there is no one in the store). But common it's not as if my job is physically demanding. The most excercise that I do on a normal day is tapping my feet to the sound of music that comes from the website I listen to.
But to tell the honest truth I love my job! How many people can say that? It's not a big deal for me to get up and go to this job. Save for mornings...I hate mornings. Anyone who went to school and saw me either sleeping before class or during the morning classes knows how much I hate mornings. Now as for sleeping in the afternoon, that was because the classes were boring.
Now back to my job, if one has been reading at least the blog before this one knows that I've been job hunting. Why? The all mighty dollar of course! I cannot keep working at wages below $10/hr even if I wanted to. I figure I got to get over $15 to really pull myself out of debt in a hurry but no matter who I put in the resumes to I get a simular responce; "Can I trust you to drive such a long drive day after day?" I'm getting this out of people in Spruce Grove! Hello? I've worked nowhere but Spruce Grove and rarely had problems with the drive, save for three feet of snow, which even if I lived across town, I probably wouldn't drive it. I live a 1/2 hour away from town, it's even a nice drive. True it gets long doing it day after day, but if I got real oppertunity for some cash I would move closer to work.
Talking about moving, oh shit....Train crash....Mental train crash and all passengers have been killed. Cry horror in the streets....





Okay that's done. A trailer that was in my neighbourhood burn down. It was a bummer so close to halloween...They always gave away tons of treats. You know those types of houses that keep you for about ten minutes stuffing an empty pillowsack full of everything you can think of; apples, cans of pop, peanuts (used to before everyone in the world suddenly seemingly developed a peanut allergy and killed a lot of good stuff for everyone else, I'll get to that perhaps on another rant), halloween kisses, caramals, a goody bag, a huge handful of suckers, a big chocolate bar. With people like that one sometimes carried the good ol' sheet with eyes cut out. "What are you little girl?" *peeks at the dark blue with stars sheet,* "I'm the night sky!"

I can only hope, but probably wouldn't get my hope, that Ben has halloween off. Last year was a blast treat or treating with him and Kim and Chelsea. Yes I did go trick or treating last year. And I got three safeway bags and a pillowcase of candy for my share of the load. I'm gosh Damn PROUD OF IT! Trick and treating is a lot easier to get a lot more candy when you don't have a driver eatting everything as he's turning the car around or when you are out of the car. Dad was a hoser that way. But not as much of a hoser as the parents who wouldn't let their kids go out, or tell them that Santa is just a fat guy in a suit. I always want to smack those parents. They will still buy the candy at the stores with the halloween decals on it. I once asked a kid what they were going to be for halloween and the parent went nuts, saying I was a devil worshiper for promoting such a event. All this while I was stuffing a package of candy bars with a green faced witch on the front of it. hypocrite.

Anyways it's time to actually get some work done so meh.

I'm Baaacccckkkkk....

Yeah I went on a hiadis...
Oh and it was soooo nice. It really wasn't as if I went to some tropical resort (common people this is me we're talking about).
I went to Seba Beach for almost 2 weeks minus a few days. It was really nice, unfortunatly we didn't have the boat in the water, but it was nice to walk along the docks at night looking at the moon's reflection in the water. Ben and I got to have some alone time, which after this we will have to see when there will be another time we will get to do this but both of us agree that it will probably be a long time.
News: I probably wouldn't be moving out any time soon, since Ben is forced to live at home (not his fault but I'm not going to post the reason online PM me if you want to know, yeash)
Eric is leaving for a while but not soon enough
My job hunt is still bearing no fruit...That's okay though cause I actually have some hours this month but next month yeah right.
Anyways I better go before my boss decides to fire me....Yeah right.

More Crap to do online

Found where one can chat with 3D avs... It's called IMVU...Pretty funny actually as one can beat up people there..Major stress relief.

About Weddings...

Well I did survive the wedding that I went to last week. I thought it appropriate that I made a note about it a full week after that way my thoughts and opinions are that of my own and have had the time to be swayed either way.

But I have to say this. That wedding was a complete and utter show.

First off it was a Catholic wedding. (If all Catholic wedding ceremonies are like this I appologize to those who are Catholic at this moment. And appologize that there is no way that I will go through another one.) Well it started off nice, with the classic walking of the bride but not in the lengths that television goes through. All the wedding party was already up by the priest(?) and was waiting for her. No introduction, to envy the other party's dresses, I didn't see a flowergirl nor ring bearer...But there is no real children of that age and maturity right now in either family so I can understand. Then everyone sits down. And the priest reads five verses that the bridge and groom chose and how it partians on how they should live their marriage. Okay fine and dandy...Everyone stands for a song, everyone sits for a speech, everyone stands in prayer, everyone sits, and yet another song by the organist and priest. I must admit that the priest had a wonderful voice, but I really could've shot the organist. She ruined the songs for me. Shill and loud eck. Finally to the classic ceremony with blessing the rings, then the vows (extended version), then blessing and signing of the marriage documents...hehehe I can see it now with me, I'll probably be so nervous that I will spell my name wrong.

So then after all was said and done it was te thanks for coming to the ceremony line. Oh goddess, being in a hot dress and black high heels and combine it with red hair and fine skin made me almost pass out with the heat, since people kept on butting in. Thankfully Ben's cousin (?) ((Way too big of family)) is huge and i stole him for a shade maker...Ben's way too small for the job. Past that I was given the cousin's baby and Ben thought that I looked quite natural. I still could hurt him for that comment. It's not my fault that she likes my sparkly necklace I had on. At least she wasn't like Kim, there was almost no drool! Hehahaha.

And then it was time to burn off...Geez with the other wedding that I was at there was pictures that the family wanted almost everyone that was dressed nice at the wedding in. Here the wedding party took off in the limo and wasn't seen until almost seven at the hotel. Fine it was okay, it made it so that I got to know a little more of Ben's extended family on one side. But after an hour or so it was getting a little long of a wait. The wedding ceremony was at noon and the dinner is at 6. Crap that was a long time. Good thing there was food where we went or I would've been whining for a burger, which would've been all over the front of my dress, I know it.

So to the dinner, which was held in the top suite of the delta inn. Half of the lights were burnt out, which really didn't matter because they were blinking anyways. The view was nice, seeing the city from high up is wonderful. I love that view, no matter which city I am in. If I get the chance to live up on the top floor of some building I would go for it, even if it is one of the small highrises here in Spruce. Living in the country has been nice all of my life, but I like change. Anyways studies say that on average, the bigger city you live in the thinner the population is. But I wonder if that study includes homeless peoples as well, but I have noticed people who are in town are in general thinner than the country counterparts.
Anyways I degress, the meal was okay, unfortunatle there was not much that I liked, oh well salad and roast beef with gravy: yum! AND FOR ONCE a dessert tray that had more than cheesecake. Every single CT christmas party that I have been in has had it so that there was chocolate, strawberry and cheery cheesecake. Hmmm now wouldn't you figure that there might be people at a buffet that don't like cheesecake, but might like the cheaper and easier to make white and chocolate cakes? A little warning to those out there in cyberland, to get foodpoisioning from cheeesecake go to the Grove Motor Inn. I hear that that case of food poisioning was published in a book.

Yeah and I'm bad at guess that tune, our table was one of the last one's to eat...*Sigh*
Anyways the dance went from 9-12...Quite a rip but most of her family was gone anyways so what the difference anyways right?

Anyways at the end of the day it cost $30,000. I can think of a lot better uses for that amount of money, no matter how much I have in the pocketbook.

Yay!

After such a long absence I finally had put Chapter three on the blog. I keep on losing that darned notebook and with everything going on at the same time it seems like I never get any time to put new stories and such online.

As for work why on earth will no one pick up theoir stuff?!?? I have done three typing and design jobs for people this week and they needed it priority one and yet still the proofs go and sit so long on my desk, sooner or later my boss is going to go nuts and complain that it looks like a tornato hit it. Well in fact that it is only like five orders sitting with their printable counterparts as well as the toners to send out. But how can I complain? Without the typing jobs there will be no work to do. With the store going into a slow and ugly death there really isn't much keeping me between a pink slip. I was hoping against hope that people would start to actually go and start giving this store a fighting chance but it seems like the work here is needed but people are not buying. Smitty's here is now closed at 4pm. Why? Lack of staff. There is more and more stores going in but there is less and less staff to run these stores and with the housing market going nuts there is few that can afford to work at some of these places for just above minimum wage. Mom hates it that I haven't found a better job, she isn't one to complain she isn't making much better than myself. Honestly if I could take the heat I would be out there in the construction trade and making the 18.00 an hour or more.

Still owners are still having to put in their time into their stores. Good to see that they are no longer hiding in the back corners as much piling the paperwork so high that they say that they are too busy to assist people. Too bad the cost of living is not going down with all this prosperity.

Dancing all alone

It has been a long time since I blogged. I was a perverbial blog-a-holic. Perhaps I will go back to my blogging again when I have the time.

But today has been a bad day.

I am forced into going to a wedding tomarrow. That blows. For one it is someone that I do not know. Two this will make people wonder when Ben and I are going to get married, and we are going through a rough time, which it is questionable if we are EVER going to get married. Three everything that I was looking for has mysteriously disappeared. For instance; my promise ring, specially bought bra straps, tuxedo coat, earrings...I have my make-up, necklace, and dress. Unfortunatly the coat that was made for the dress is too small (I don't think it ever really fit me it is almost too small for kim)

Also last night I couldn't sleep so I did down my nails and now they are cracking and tearing. Good thing I didn't paint them or I would be trying to touch them up tonight. But I might have to paint my nails anyways cause they are now spotty and such...Yuck. I like the top part white and the lower pink. I just hate painting or doing anything with them due to the fact that it just weakens the nail and that I have to do something to them, rather than letting them grow cause if I haven't mentioned it anywhere else I AM LAZY!!!!

The other fact that I couldn't sleep is that I'm nervous about going to this wedding. Ben goes, "We just love our family get togethers" meanwhile his girlfriend is going I want to go home and I haven't even got there yet. I have gone to the yearly family get togethers at Christmas time and with so many people there I wanted to crawl underr the table and hide in a dark corner away from everyone. I know that it is kind've childish to go and do such a thing but that is my way. I don't handle people well. I guess that might be one of the reasons that I don't want to marry Ben. There is too much family at once and not enough of it in between. It isn't like there is a big family dinner every weekend nor a immediate family dinner every night. What is the point of having this types of things when the family is close and it seems like it is too much work for one to visit Aunts, Uncles and Grandparents when they are only less than an hour away?

Perhaps that's just me.

Google Searchs

I have noticed how much of a pain in the ass it is anymore to find anything on the internet these days without a pay - to - use site blocking your way to find what you want. Latly I have been trying to find some emulators to download due to the falling amount of money I have due to fuel. Anyways it seems like no matter where you turn there was sites who wanted up to $50 to download a game that doesn't cost that much on the original platform, that I am not forced to play in a terrible computer screen. Finally after much hosing and searching I finally found what I was looking for and some more. It seems as if Nintendo is screwing over the public once more with the protecting and sueing of people who put out copies of their mario games, even though they are expired, and almost impossible to get anymore. For example; Mario brothers 3. Originally made for the NES, was placed under the protection thingy due to the fact that it was released in the GBA platform. However once you go looking for the game in the real world they are asking for more than $45 for the damned thing that they figured that people whould really enjoy it on a 2" screen. Bah. Now that I finally broke down and let Bennett buy a gamecube (even though I thought of buying it after paying off the credit card bill) I find out that those butt wipes of nintendo has discontinued the gameboy pplayer adaption so that one can play the gameboy games on screen to make room for their new hardware. Unless that new hardware features the fact that you can play gameboy games on the television screen why on gamers green earth would they discontinue such an item on a console that is still on the market? (Ever seen the gamecube games? They are small)
I am sick and tired of seeing things I want and they never come to fruit. Like the revolution. Some say that it is the wii, others say they discontinued it before it came out due to lack of interest. I'm not sure which is true but I have something to say for both. 1. Renamed to wii: Nintendo already spent huge mony in advertising of the revolution. Why would they change the name to wii? Already I have seen the wii controller and the revolution controller, they do not look even remotly the same. 2. Disinterest from the public: There is millions upon millions of old nintendo games without a platform to be played upon due to hardware crashes accidents and other things that life sends our ways. Many of us would still buy the old nintendo cartridges if there was something that we could play these pieces of nastalgia. Personally I am still looking for consoles and will forever be on the hunt, for there are games out there that I would love to play. The revolution sounded like the cheapest and most easiest way for that to happen, also would allow nintendo to produce some of their older cartridge games once more and they would be brand new to the new generation of gamers. I gave Kim a emulated version of Mario Kart and she played for hours, since it was a new game for her, never seen before. It would make the company more than enough money without producing any r&d into their games. History was the R&D! True one has to minus the already game sales but some of those who were produced has crashed and therefore not usable and if people bought them then and played them until they died due to wear I think they might buy them again, wouldn't you?

Either way I am still waiting and watching. I saw a brand new NES system never out of the box with the gray gun at the Otafest last year. Maybe sometime soon I might be able to get my hands on the things I want and then I would have to have a house with a custom game room that will have enough power so that I don't blow breakers, switch power cords or anything like that to run my multiple vcrs, betas, nintendos, n64s, gamecube, television, stereo equipment, dvd players, dvd burner, ps, ps2s....Yes there is multiples of the ones with s's behind them....So sue me I like stuff, and I'm a good shopper so most of the stuff came to me almost or free...

More things...

I hate mice on the loose. I think they are so cute, especially when they are small and are sitting around chewing on something, but they like to chew and squeek at you in the middle of the night. I have one ccocky mouse (I hate cocky mice) who has effectivly evaded all the traps so far. I woke up the other night to find him SITTING on the ultrasound mouse shooer thing a ma gig....ummm yeah. So the proceeding was me chasing the poor thing all around with one of the old small fish tanks trying not to squish the stupid thing... Also it has set off three of the stick traps and ate all the peanut butter. I think this one is a NIMH mouse. Either than that it's luckier than it's other dead counterparts.

Why am I writing about mice that has done their yearly invasion of my home? Because unlike every year, I got this god damned cocky mouse. And two cats that have no interest in killing it. Even though one is making my mom pissed off at it due to the fact that it kills all the birds that come to the feeders, save for the hummingbirds.

Also I'm running on about three hours of sleep a night and I'm burnt. I'm going to get that damned mouse or die trying! LOL

Gods help me it's only Thursday...

It's 4 pm on thursday, and I am exhausted. I don't think I can take anymore, I just want to put up my little white flag and surrender. I don't know why I feel like this, but it feels better typing it out. Here is as good as any place.

I miss the days of high school. I took out the yearbook the other day and looked at some of the pictures remembering some of the stuff we all used to do everyday there. It's hard to think that my sister probably isn't going to go to the old memorial Comp. It is often nice to go and walk the halls that I had walked everyday that I attended. I went down main street and it seems weird. A lot of things have changed and I am still not sure if it is for the better or it the slow decline of the downtown sector. I really don't want to touch anything anymore. Everything I use, touch,do, gets ruined in the end.

I look back on my life and, true there would be some things I would like to change, all of us as humanity does. Some are small lessons in life that if they were missed they would've changed our lives forever. Is there anything that can be done about something like that now? No. We have to pray and hope that we live out our lives and that we have done the best with the cards that we were dealt. Some do a lot better than others. Man, no wonder I'm getting depressed, my mentality must be pulling it's weight lately...Probably explains why I have been writing so well lately....

Oh well food is calling! Chio!

While digging in the recycle bin part 1

I came upon this poem...Thought it interesting and to save it before it gets thrown out. Enjoy!

Four in the morning

It's four inthe morning and once more the dawnin'

Just woke up he wanting in me

Wishin' I'd never met her - knowing if I'd forget her

How much better off she would be

The longer I hold on and the longer this goes on

The harder that it's gonna be

But it's four in the morning and what's more the dawnin'

Just woke up the wanting in me

I never deserved her god knows when I hurt her

That's the last thing that I want to do

She tries but she can't tell how she feels but I know

Too well what she's goin' through

If I love her so much I don't know why I can't do

The right thing and just let her be

But it's four in the morning and once more the dawnin'

Just woke up the wanting in me

Last night I told her this time it's all over

Makin' ten times I told her goodbye

Last nite we broke up this morning I woke up

And for the tenth time I'm changing my mind

I saw more love in her eyes when I left her

Than most foolish men will ever see

But it's four in the morning and once more the dawnin'
Just woke up the wanting in me

-Anonomous <---However it is spelt.

Why do I even try? LOL

Good Afternoon.

I am unsure of why but this is something that I have found out in the last few days that everyone in Spruce and Stony that I encounter is suffering from a lack of sleep, or seem to be. Here I am almost falling asleep on the way to work, to Carol, who is going around yawning. I think the fact that it is sooo slow right now is making at least us here absolutly tired. What is the great boom in Alberta? It is not in the little guys. It's all in the oil industry and those associated with it. Comming in with the big wages for the oil workers is the large wages that pull people to stay in town and not go up to Fort Mac, or anywhere where the coal and oil is driving the money machine. Anyone who comes in for us to send out resumes or type them are all looking out for the large price gains.

Which I shall bring it to the single person who is working at a store like WalMart or Canadian Tire, where the worst hassle of the day is customers actually asking for something. Staples is simular with people running for the hills as soon as someone walks into the store. I bet that cashiers would take off if they weren't pinned to the tills. Also what is the point of actually working? To those type of jobs, no matter if you work hard or slack off and kinda do your job, you get paid the same. What really kicks people in the shins is that when the slack-ass gets paid more for what he does, the reason is that they are the first to complain and threaten to move on. Companies are too afraid to let people go due to the fact that they could cross the street and find a better job. The kicker is once they find someone like me, I will work for less than I am worth.

And what are people worth? A lot less than 30 years ago. Not when you compare to what the money of that time could buy. My parents used to work at the same wage that I do now, and groceries costed them about $25, rent $75/mo., fuel (not much) and it didn't take them too long to accumilate enough money to buy a house with some land. Today I am working at a little bit higher rate and cannot get enough money to keep my car together and in fuel. Forget the house.

I haven't done well in the real estate thing, one reason why is that I haven't been healthy enough to do so. This is now week two of having an ear infection. Now the damned thing is spreading to the other ear and down my throat. So I sit in my little corner and try to ignore the rest of the world so that I don't have to really focus too hard on trying to understand people that are standing infront of me, forget the phone. I have almost exploded on my boss for walking up behind me and started to talk like usual on my bad side and then come up on the side that I actually can hear out of and surprise the hell outta me...GRUMBLE.

As for the rest of my life I'm going to try for a tractor driving job. Maybe it will be air conditioned and pay almost double that I get paid for here...We will see.

I have been writing again. As soon as I get more time at my computer and shoo Kim away from it I might post more on it but that is a maybe. I'm working in some interesting new lines and ideas in it. Hopefully everyone will approve and I can draw them as beautifully as they are in my mind...

The Three Day Forecast: Sunny and 32 Degrees...Blarg

I am incredibly disappointed in myself...I haven't wrote a blog in more than 2 weeks...*Slaps hands* well to tell truth I have been bbusy doing nothing to make even a simple note.

Well had another "in-law-to-be" family get-together which had both Ben's mom and grandmom filling in phonebooks and updating phone numbers. Ben and I sat down and he kinda visited while I finished writing my last chapter and Ben went, "We'll need to sit down and copy down the numbers and addresses."
Mom: "What for?"
Ben: "To send out invitations in the future"
Mom: "..." *snort* "You don't need them."

1. In the FUTURE. Therefore not tomorrow.
2. Didn't say WHICH TYPE of invitations. We could in theory, buy a home and invite family to a house warming.
3. Dating for...What did Ben say again...umm...2 years, 4 months and 9 days. My parents are wondering what the hell is wrong with us, why aren't we married yet. Unfortunatly, Ben wants the big wedding, but the big wedding is expensive. The only reason for the big wedding is because of HIS big family. I'm not really expecting either family to contribute much or anything. *Grumbles*
4. WHAT THE HELL IS HER FUCKING PROBLEM? I try to be nice, I try to be supportive, and I try to promote her idealism, even saying that the day was great even though it was a piece of shit.


I am sick and tired of people. I have a customer who will not deal with me because I chew on my lower lip and have red hair. So what! It's natural and the other is a habit, I can think of many other habits that are far worse.

I had a showing of a house the other day to some nice people who had come over from another country but have been renting for a while. End of story I gotta learn to slow down and stay calm. Sorry for teasing you all for such a crappy statement about the day showing but it's my policy that it stays mostly under my hat. I must say that it is kinda funny how some people think. They almost thought that the houses up for sale were empty, and almost that homes were built at different times in an area. If one house was ten years too old the house across the street is going to be ten years too old. Or at least nine years too old.

Being general for a moment, people don't realize that it's nuts out there in the housing market. We went and talked to builders (new) and in Edmonton they DO NOT build for less that $300 000. The only spec house was $315 000 for one builder. They are nice homes I got to admit. I figure that resell homes should be as average, kicking range of new. Maybe in a bit I will change my out look on how prices are but that is the only references I have right at the moment. I must state once again, this market is stupid nuts now.

If you haven't read the title read it again. The hot weather is making my brain into mush. Dad is going to let me refill the air conditioning in the catty so Yay!

Anyways song of the week: Animal I have Become: 3 days grace.

For those who wonder why I do the song of the week, is so that I can remember to look for that song/disk/artist and this seems to be a more permanant way to do so.