Ha ha Ben's more Neurotic than I thought

My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	82
Openness To Experience	48
Agreeableness	54
Conscientiousness	51

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My Personality

Neuroticism	97
Extraversion	1
Openness To Experience	66
Agreeableness	0
Conscientiousness	17

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You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. You can be easily upset, even by what people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising and you have less concern with others' needs than with your own. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Neuroticism explanation
Overall Score 97
Anxiety 98
Anger 43
Depression 99
Self-Consciousness 99
Immoderation 42
Vulnerability 93

You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion explanation
Overall Score 1
Friendliness 1
Gregariousness 0
Assertiveness 28
Activity Level 41
Excitement-Seeking 0
Cheerfulness 1

People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits.

Openness To Experience explanation
Overall Score 66
Imagination 90
Artistic Interests 71
Emotionality 44
Adventurousness 0
Intellect 91
Liberalism 69

Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Agreeableness explanation
Overall Score 0
Trust 21
Morality 1
Altruism 0
Cooperation 34
Modesty 40
Sympathy 0

You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

Conscientiousness explanation
Overall Score 17
Self-Efficacy 21
Orderliness 6
Dutifulness 44
Achievement-Striving 26
Self-Discipline 54
Cautiousness 26

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.


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I got me a voice recorder...

Kim and I were doing the two words each thingy and this is what we came up with. I'm so am surprised that we sound so much alike. We were interrupted half way through to do chores so it's not complete, maybe it could be completed at some other time, maybe not too I donno...

Blue skies were now drawing clouds from the north east so the little kitty wanted to hide from the angry clouds that smelled like rain. She hissed at the dog that was hiding under the dorrstep that she was sitting under. The startled dog ran away and ran into the old man who kicked the dog flying. Happy the cat purred, and was eating some dried cat food. Suddenly she, saw that there was a break in the rain. So she ran over to her owners place. She was locked outside. That made her angry and started to meow and scratch at the doorframe. What a dumb cat the owner yelled so she ran away and never came back. The cat went to another place near an old farm were she found a huge amount of vets. So she continued on. She found a place that had lots of other cats, that she found two liked to play. Especially the little gray one, which was named Henry the first. Day they that she was there Henry decided to move and eat somewhere else. Angry the mother cat decided to ground him and eat all his short-shorts. So he got mad and ran farther and with the rat that was friends with Henry. The female rat was suddenly died. And so Henry was lonely so the female cat decided to travel with him. The days went quickly by as the two went travelling somewhere else. They went to the city where there was lots of icecream stores! Happily they stole the icecream and ate it until their stomachs were fat. And very round. Disgusted they started to travel on un til they found another place where they met up with a large tabby who was orange. He was named Garfield. So he went with them to eat icecream but they said there was no more...

Friday the 13th! It's story time!

I thought that it would be nice to have something halloweenish and considering that this is Friday the 13th, I thought it would be good to post a picture that we all could write a story upon. I remember from way back having a picture simular to below and writing something spooky on it. Might be interesting on what everybody comes up with... Happy writing!

A few moments before work

This is the time in which I love to be at work. The store is open but I don't have to do anything. I know I'm weird. I used to come in from a break early when I worked at CT and watch the people get ready for their shift, or off to have a smoke. The time in which is away from home and I can tell people to eat shit and die, cause I'm not technically here. Unfortunately here it isn't always the way that I can go. For one I usually work on the computer in the "cubicle like cage" that is my workstation, so that if I go over my time I just leave the site open and work on it whenever I got a spare moment or whenever I get a break (ie whenever the other girls go for a smoke break and there is no one in the store). But common it's not as if my job is physically demanding. The most excercise that I do on a normal day is tapping my feet to the sound of music that comes from the website I listen to.
But to tell the honest truth I love my job! How many people can say that? It's not a big deal for me to get up and go to this job. Save for mornings...I hate mornings. Anyone who went to school and saw me either sleeping before class or during the morning classes knows how much I hate mornings. Now as for sleeping in the afternoon, that was because the classes were boring.
Now back to my job, if one has been reading at least the blog before this one knows that I've been job hunting. Why? The all mighty dollar of course! I cannot keep working at wages below $10/hr even if I wanted to. I figure I got to get over $15 to really pull myself out of debt in a hurry but no matter who I put in the resumes to I get a simular responce; "Can I trust you to drive such a long drive day after day?" I'm getting this out of people in Spruce Grove! Hello? I've worked nowhere but Spruce Grove and rarely had problems with the drive, save for three feet of snow, which even if I lived across town, I probably wouldn't drive it. I live a 1/2 hour away from town, it's even a nice drive. True it gets long doing it day after day, but if I got real oppertunity for some cash I would move closer to work.
Talking about moving, oh shit....Train crash....Mental train crash and all passengers have been killed. Cry horror in the streets....





Okay that's done. A trailer that was in my neighbourhood burn down. It was a bummer so close to halloween...They always gave away tons of treats. You know those types of houses that keep you for about ten minutes stuffing an empty pillowsack full of everything you can think of; apples, cans of pop, peanuts (used to before everyone in the world suddenly seemingly developed a peanut allergy and killed a lot of good stuff for everyone else, I'll get to that perhaps on another rant), halloween kisses, caramals, a goody bag, a huge handful of suckers, a big chocolate bar. With people like that one sometimes carried the good ol' sheet with eyes cut out. "What are you little girl?" *peeks at the dark blue with stars sheet,* "I'm the night sky!"

I can only hope, but probably wouldn't get my hope, that Ben has halloween off. Last year was a blast treat or treating with him and Kim and Chelsea. Yes I did go trick or treating last year. And I got three safeway bags and a pillowcase of candy for my share of the load. I'm gosh Damn PROUD OF IT! Trick and treating is a lot easier to get a lot more candy when you don't have a driver eatting everything as he's turning the car around or when you are out of the car. Dad was a hoser that way. But not as much of a hoser as the parents who wouldn't let their kids go out, or tell them that Santa is just a fat guy in a suit. I always want to smack those parents. They will still buy the candy at the stores with the halloween decals on it. I once asked a kid what they were going to be for halloween and the parent went nuts, saying I was a devil worshiper for promoting such a event. All this while I was stuffing a package of candy bars with a green faced witch on the front of it. hypocrite.

Anyways it's time to actually get some work done so meh.

I'm Baaacccckkkkk....

Yeah I went on a hiadis...
Oh and it was soooo nice. It really wasn't as if I went to some tropical resort (common people this is me we're talking about).
I went to Seba Beach for almost 2 weeks minus a few days. It was really nice, unfortunatly we didn't have the boat in the water, but it was nice to walk along the docks at night looking at the moon's reflection in the water. Ben and I got to have some alone time, which after this we will have to see when there will be another time we will get to do this but both of us agree that it will probably be a long time.
News: I probably wouldn't be moving out any time soon, since Ben is forced to live at home (not his fault but I'm not going to post the reason online PM me if you want to know, yeash)
Eric is leaving for a while but not soon enough
My job hunt is still bearing no fruit...That's okay though cause I actually have some hours this month but next month yeah right.
Anyways I better go before my boss decides to fire me....Yeah right.